Friday, December 14, 2007
life is vunerable
Why is life so vunerable??
i really just don get it..how can life be so vunerable..cherish your life while you can!i guess that the only thing that we can do to live our life to the fullest..
Well,today was really a bad day..many sad memories came back to my mind..many of those which makes my heart feel as thou it was stabbed..
Was really tired today morning when i went to work...its like literally dragging my legs..really bad..cos my mum say that sally(someone that is in charge of scolding people) would be in the office early so i had to wake up extremely early so that i wouldn't be late...So ya..the day starts like that..
First thing in the office..i heard bad news..not 1 but 2 bad news..First is that my previous boss(my mums friend)father pass away after having stroke...at that moment i was like..how can life be so miserable..a few days ago a person who can happy walk and chat would had to suffer from leaving his or her love ones just like that..It reminded me of my own experience 4 years ago..the day before he was still health and happy..when the next day he just disappear in my life(he will never disappear in my mind)...it really make me wonder..what the point living in this world??we got to leave our love ones one day..its hurts..it not only hurt the person who pass away..but the ones that are close to the deceased.so what the point living in this world..it just hurt people..why must reality be like that..i really dont understand..The only things we can remember people is by memory as well as photos..but..the these isn't the things we want..what we one is actually the person by our side...
The second news that came to me was that my 2nd uncle is warded into the cancer ward..a black spot was found in the scanning of his brain..the doctors suspect that it might be a sign of cancer..but they could not find out what it is..so they suggest to do kimo-therpy( i dont really know how to spell it.)..Please pray for him to recover..it made me think about my cousin who passed away earlier this year..she is just a 12 year old kid..how can god be so..right..she was found to have cancer at the age of 8 years old..a helpless primary 2 kid found to have cancer..that is ridiculous..but it just happen..the world is unfair..she had not gone through all the fun and happy moments on earth and yet had to be brought away..she was a very understanding girl..a girl who had a very forgiving heart..a girl who was made perfect yet imperfect..a girl who had gone through lots of pain yet did not utter a word..a girl who was caring towards everyone..a girl who was bubbly and cheerful...a girl who was a gift from heaven..how can anyone be so crude to bring her away from us..all the cancerous cells had been torturing her for years..yet she did not utter a word of pain..all she showed us was that she was ok..constant reminders that she is very fine..but everyone knows that she is suffering from all the pain silently..there was this year where we celebrated her birthday at her house..everyone knows that birthdays are suppose to receive presents..yet she gave each and everyone a present..something that she treasure most..i was confused for a moment..why did she gave us gifts??i asked myself..but later i came to realise that what she had done was to make us remember that such a girl existed..she did not want to be forgotten..she told us that she want us to remember her when she pass away..my heart really hurts when i recall that..she know that she has little time left..yet she did not gave up..i really miss this girl of mine..when she had cancer her schoolmates folded 1000 cranes for her to bless her..such beautiful cranes were too beautiful that many would want to keep for life..yet she donated it to the poor..there was one charity programme done by a rice company saying that each crane donated will inturn become a bowl of rice for the poor..she donated 1000 this means that the poor would have extra 1000 bowls of rice..i was really proud of her...althought she always keep a strong front..i know that deep down she always feel inferior to others because she was a handicap..i just feel unfair for all these people..all the stares that they had to face..all the fi ngers pointing at them..its really unfair..it just make them fear to leave their house..so pls people...give these people a break..they are also human..no different from anyone of us..so please stop staring at them!!!
Aside from the two news..i heard that my grandma old friend whom i also know commited suicide..it was really unexpected from a person like her..she was a very cheerful grandauntie..a person who talks so loudly that we often laugh at her..i can still remember that she treated me very well..i hope she can rest in peace..
I am a Drama Queen!!Queen Of Drama!!Drama Queen!!i love to be very drama..(that explains why i in drama club)and besides drama i am still drama..i am constantly acting!!!however i got something even drama...that is to laugh and say fall down jokes:)