my personally feelings today-i am lost..totally lost...seriously i don know wat to do..fascinating things keep coming..First is her then him then him...well i am not really complaining here but icant think of ani good suggestion how to stop all this..well my cousin...she is sort of irritating me by the way she say things to me..i know she is doing this because she doesnt want me to get hurt..get sad..after she leave this world...i know she is in great pain and i know how much she love to be in this world..i personally think that people should let her have her last choice..her last wish...that is to let her stay in this world longer..why must you people make all those nasty comments like should let her go...she is in great pain...hu don know that she is in great pain...but since she choose to hold on..then let her be..and for people hu make comments oni in their personal expect...do you know anithing that you say to me aunty would be considered by her..so think before you speak...seriously..visiting her means going there to talk to her look at her but wat you guys are doing is that after saying hi to her in the room...you immediately go to the living room to have a chat...is this visiting?no.however i still like to say thanks to you for seeing her...but for that particular uncle of hers...are you afraid that cancer would spread??the ans is no..so why are you so afraid of visiting her..you visited her once and thats all..we called you to go for more gathering and yet you gave excuse like i have to work...then we ask you to bring your children and your wife there..then you give excuse again...do you know that she can leave us ani moment...so why dont you bring them to see her for the last time..i know...you when to the hospital..but your wife and your child didnt...

its better to love then to be love..

Its been quite some time me not blogging...didnt have time..But seriously..i need to say sorry to my friends who had cared for me..its been a down period for me this few weeks..despite my friends caring for me,i turn a cold shoulder towards them...i am really sorry..my cousin contracted with lung cancer and there is nothing that can be done for her...NO CURE!!!i have to watch her time passing by just like that..nothing i could do...i feel so useless...I hate myself for not spending sufficent time with her..Wat i can do now is oni allowing her to feel happier..making her time feel worthwhile..i dont mind being tired..but wat i mind is that i have seriously neglated my friends..pai seh jia ying...everytime say morning wan go makan with you then in the end in the morning call and say very tired...pai seh to yuan ting too...you say i never go stand up for you in your blog when you kenna suan...seriously sorry...i really got no time..by the time i reach home i would be tired and i would sleep like pig..at my cousin house everyday...cant use the com too..its oni todae that i can spare sometime because i came home early..but hey...i got go stand up for you...i tag 2..although information mixed up..seriously seriously sorry to all my friends...and to those that i have shared my tears with..seriously grateful..without you..i might not hold on for so long...